counting the days

its a bit funny
how the days pass so quickly
and people don't notice that
they believe that they are living their life to the fullest
but actually they are not
maybe they are too .. relaxed

yesterday i've been noticed
that i got accepted to the navy
they want me in very soon.
and i knew that this day will come
but i never thought that
the day will actually come
maybe i was too .. relaxed
and ran away from reality

now i'm counting my days
that i could spend with my family and friends
or look at the beautiful view of surabaya through the window
until november 6

the night sky brighten up by the stars
the streets, by the streetlights
and even now the day is passing .
slowly but quickly
and i have one less day to count

time

time wasn't a factor for me before
i had watches, but i didn't looked at them
we had clocks, but i never looked at them
the days were long and nights seemed longer.
but as i got older and older
days seem short and nights seem shorter
i look at my watch often
or i tend to ask people what time it is
time became a big factor for me.

time is very uncontrollable
it goes fast when i want it to be slow
it goes slow when i want it to be fast
and time brings 'end' to everything
eventhough i don't want it to end.

these past days with people i love went amazingly fast
it feels like i met them only yesterday
but now they are all gone
if only we had more days to spend together
or if only the time went by more slowly
we would be still together, enjoying
.....
will i be able to live not caring about time again?

words

damn
fuck
shit
...
sometimes these are the only words that come up to my mind

1

just heard a song from 'dance dance revolution'
it reminded me of the time when i used to play that game
i remember i played with passion
with all those moves which i don't even remember now

one of my sweet memorizes.

you really don't know what you've got until its gone.

i just watched the last season of 'friends' again
reminding me of my friends, my family, my home,
realizing i'm not with them anymore,
reminiscing the old good days,
not knowing when we will be together again,
missing them so much,

and realizing i really want to say,


i love you

getting started again

i stopped writting after i got back from vancouver.
today i was thinking 'why did i stop writing it?'...
did not come up with an answer
but i started writing again, because i may not be who i am right now
after two or three years
i'm planning to do my military service
so i just want to write my thoughts before i get brain washed
...
people in korea is crazy about world cup.
i mean, they are literary becoming crazy.
some people are having sex on the street, others watching them,
people are shouting to the stomach of a pregnant women,
people jumping on other people's car, destroying them,

thats not cheering, thats.. more like a chaos.
what the hell happened to this country?

a little late but happy new years

our school just started today
i'm sitting and listening to the beatles
and realized that i had crazy winter break in vancouver

i stayed about 10 days in vancouver..but it seems that i have stayed for a long time like right now ... that place is more familiar than my place
i bet the chinese guy in the restaurant think that we all were the student of ubc. oh man, i still remember the time i had an awkward moment with the chinese guy
'where is the fortune cookie!!!!?!?!' kekeke

'so what should we eat?' 'hm. i don't know. chinese? or the korean noodle?'
the korean noodle...the second day i got there...we had a mission.:to find the korean restaurant that had the korean noodle 'jja jjang myuen'
and we did. in metro-town..
but i love the korean restaurant(which also had the korean noodle) downtown.haha.only the people who went there know why i love that place.hehe

the jap night club... which kind of turned out to be a concert.
but it was fun.. seeing japanese people singing..
and...should i call the break dance battle? kekekek
we drank absinthe for the first time that night ..and almost got ourselves killed the next morning

another morning comes...'wanna go and watch narnia?' yeah! yeah! yeah!
we found a theatre nearby,
a ghetto theatre where it smelled funky
and in few minutes tuhin and i will be sleeping.and jungho will be waking us up

late night at home with domino's pizza
we'll watch something while eating/sleeping
'what should we watch? ali.G? southpark? moulin rougue?
or should we borrow some dvds?'
whatever it is, it closes the curtain of our day

.
.
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and again...i thought my winter break will last forever
but it didn't
and right now...jungho is in irvine, tuhin still in vancouver, and i'm in michigan
back to school
maybe the break was more like runaway from the reality we had, from all the stress
or maybe. just a long dream.
but eventhough it is.
i cherish every moment, every single moment i had with my friends in vancouver
i should have took more pictures...damn..
but still i got summer

anyway,
a little bit late
but.
everybody
happy new years
wish you the best for this year